AHHHH~
he’s so cool..ahhhh Any ideas how to make him like me? HUUMMM
gawd i just love guys who can play instruments like..JON! he was so hot.
Though i wish he was still in band then i can have a secret love thing with him during camp…XD
When im with him i feel like my troubles are WASHED away.. :D hehehe
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in desperate need of good music…im deprived of it..D:
that is all. :D
Im moving on. Dont need this anymore.I feel like im only draggin this on and i know its just going to hurt more. I hope im doing the right thing. I am doing the right thing
OK OK OK NOW I AM UNDERSTANDING THINGS…ISH
>< practice was hard….and that took up all my time …now i realized i have a test tmmr..DAMN IT T.T
:/ sometimes i dont want to open my eyes..because when i do, i realized everything that happened is true. Dreams just become dreams…and then u enter reality.
I’ve never felt so lost and confused. When did things become so difficult?
Im tired of crying. Im tired of wondering if we are going to be back. Im tired of this. Im tired of gettin the same emotionless response.
>< i cant take much more.
Life.
Is depressing D:<
first off, i have a freakin final on wednesday and im like 2.2 percent away from not taking it…stupid…92% in bio
second, familys pmsing D:< well..basically my mom and my sister…all my other family members are away from hoommme.
third..rooms a mess…haha guess thats my fault but uh…ill fix that.
lastly, the friggin main problem of my life is my <3 life. i seriously have NO IDEA WHY its such a problem. it just hurts D:< There’s just so many problems to it. i mean how difficult can gettin back together be. If im willing to change things for the better and im willing to listen, how could that get even more difficult. Seriously, i am tryin so freakin hard just to make this work. And if he has a problem with it..HE SHOULD JUST STRAIGHT OUT TELL ME then rather have me >< over analyze these things. >< Bluntly, i dont even know if he wants things to work out. I have no idea why its takin so long. He barely shows any interest in my life. It’s just not the same anymore.. i mean where we are right now…im stuck and it feels like shit while he likes things and enjoys it. I wonder if he actually tries to understand from my point of view. I just want him to express his emotions and actually tell me things. That way, we can move on for the better or worse.
ANYWAY so far im tryin to make my crappy life into a better one. Plannin many things with my friends whom i have completely lost communication with which i regret and apologize for not being there when u guys needed me.
So far, im just gonna try and forget about the bad things…even though thats like super hard…but its for the better ><
